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Sub’s mission of submissionI can completely submit to him because I know He loves me and cherishes me. He knows my limits and how to slowly but surely extend them. I trust that He will mould me and my behavior to his liking more and more day by day, by month, year by year. I trust that He will ensure that I completely satisfy his needs directly or indirectly. By doing that my needs are fulfilled – because my deepest need is – to fulfill his needs.I sometimes have a picture of him in my mind when He is 70, tanned and grinning with a sparkle in his eye holding my hand in a beach bar somewhere warm and knowing that his wife has been wearing his chains for over 30 years. I can submit control fully because I trust that He will protect our vanilla identities carefully at all times even when sharing me with others, virtually with images and video footage of me and email exchanges or physically in sessions. > > I am not a slave. Slaves are not free. I am submissive and have freely chosen to abdicate control of my body and mind to my Master. He does ankara escort not take them from my against my will. I give them to him as a gift with all of my heart, soul and mind and every part of my body. It is beautiful. It feels so right. His gift to me is that He knows how to handle this gift and how to make it flourish. Rather than abuse it, use it up and destroy it He knows how to build on it, push it, stretch it and polish it until it is exactly to his liking. If He wishes to treat me like a slave He will and I often fantasize about a time when I will be able to live as his 24/7 slave for days at a time. If He wishes to abuse my body He will and I love to endure the pain that turns him on and to see and feel the marks he leaves me. I know that He will never abuse the gift of my submission. I don’t have a safe word unless for a specific scene he decides I need one. That gives me the space to relax, let him take full control and develop as his sub. This too is beautiful. Being his sub gives me a deep sense of contentment. A ankara escort bayan feeling of being “at home”. When I think about it it makes me aroused and wet. When I reflect for longer (like now) I can feel a pressure in my chest which is the bundled up feelings and overwhelming devotion. I am his sub and will do whatever He asks me to do whenever he asks me and with whomever He decides. I do not need to think about it. This leaves me free to devote my attention to doing it well. In my vanilla life I am a decision maker and a driver and impatient to get things done. When I have decided on something I go for it. Bridging this gap is something I am still learning. I have to remind myself as his sub that it is not about me. As his sub I must learn to be patient and wait until He tells me to do something. For example I would like to have some Ben wa balls so that I can train my vaginal muscles to be tight despite all the stretching they regularly endure. The vanilla me wants to rush out and buy some and start using them. As a sub escort ankara I have to learn to be patient and wait. He will decide if and when I get them – and if and when I am to wear them for his pleasure. It is not about me. Being a Master carries responsibility and thought. This must be demanding and I can imagine that He needs a break sometimes. If I wish for attention and my Master is tired or busy or simply not in the mood I am learning to hold back from demanding from him and remind myself: It is not about me. As long as he is contented them so am I. Something is struggle with is when my Master gives a lot of his attention to somebody else or something else. I feel a jealousy that eats away at me that I have never experienced before. I know one day He will share me with others and will give his cock to another woman. At the moment I think this would eat me up. This is an area I really need to work on and remember: it is not about me. It is not about me. It is about HIM. Making him happy, fulfilled and satisfied is my true purpose. It is the purpose of my every free minute that my vanilla life allows. As the years progress the time available for my sub role and my abilities in many areas of being a worthy sub will continue to increase…slowly but surely and hornily. Subwife
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